Caroline had been haunted by a constant fear of death for many years and as she said: “I keep on seeing myself as old, alone and powerless when facing death and this terrifies me! It feels like a constant stabbing in my back“.
When looking deeper into her mind, it was apparent that her feelings of powerlessness in the face of death were an echo of old feelings from an unresolved traumatic death she experienced in childhood. The painful memory which her subconscious kept alive all the way to the age of 65 became overwhelming.
This childhood trauma was at the root of her fear. Caroline explained what happened: “It is very late evening, just a few weeks after my grandmother passed away. She and my grandfather are my everything. I don’t have parents. Well, they are strangers that abuse me, whereas my grandfather, fortunately still alive, buys me comics, talks to me and cares about me. I feel safe and protected for having my grandfather, who is a father to me.
I am 12 years old and sitting next to my grandfather, waiting for his favourite show to start. There are only two of us in the room and my two younger siblings are asleep. I don’t know why, but since his spouse’s death he has been falling asleep at any opportunity.
He fell asleep again. As soon as his show starts, I am shaking him to wake him up. Now, I am calling him, then begging him to please don’t leave me, you got me, I am here for you, don’t leave me, stay alive for me!!!
I am frightened, I feel powerless to wake him up. I am alone with little children asleep but really alone. Without him I have nothing. I am done when he is dead. I exhaust myself trying to wake him up and so now with patience and in silence I am sitting next to him, waiting for his eyes to open. I am dreading seeing the truth. Because the truth means that I am done, that’s it, that’s it. I kept on repeating this.”
Grandfather reunion. Intuitive medium work.
As Caroline spoke about her beloved grandad, I felt a presence of someone standing next to me. He was tall, slender, wore a grey suit and unusual shoes with a dark brown leather top and light cream soles. He insisted I pass a message to Caroline. At the same time, he was stretching his right hand out, which was holding 5 candies, wrapped in golden coloured wrapping paper with orange and blue stripes. He was holding these strangely, leaving the candies sticking out open in the air.
To this Caroline responded as a matter of fact and explained that those shoes were his favourite and one of only two pairs he had. She recognised the candies and said without any surprise on her face: “yes, they are the mentees, he would give them to me each time he came home from work.”
She was keen to hear the message her grandfather conveyed, which was: “I love you, I have never left your side, that was just an illusion, and was all for you to learn from, so you can understand that you must cherish and love yourself – that is the biggest gift of all.”
Caroline’s mind had to be reshaped to cure her death phobia. Her immediately recovered self-empowering self-knowledge and wisdom were expressed as she said: “I no longer feel powerless and weak against death. I have stopped waiting for my grandpa to rescue me. I am the powerful being I have always been but just wasn’t aware of it. I contain my own resourcefulness; I am the parent that takes care of the child within me. So, I choose to stop abandoning myself, for I have never been abandoned through death, I was liberated by realising that all I need I have and I am fully capable of taking care of myself.”
Caroline was cured of her fear of death in one session.
We all go through different paths of suffering in our life-journey. As Buddha said, “Life is suffering, let’s begin with that”. Painful life lessons are sometimes necessary for us to discover self-knowledge to find ourselves and discover our inner bliss. Even a diamond becomes brighter with every cut.
If you suffer from a phobia or fear death and are looking for healing, I would be very happy to help you. Start seeing the curative benefits and positive changes immediately with my S.C. Holistic Therapy approach, please see the testimonials.
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Natalia Nad, Psychotherapist, Hypnotherapist, NLP, Theta Healer, Energy-Spiritual Healer, Medium: S.C. Holistic Therapy Healing.